Thursday, August 21, 2014

at the beach

...with a 39 week bump

This morning after rising from a rather unsettled night, I gave Ronan a big hug and he looked at me and said 'Mum, I think the baby is going to come really soon.'

Monday, August 18, 2014

preparing for our baby: the birth

My birth experiences with my first two children were incredible and beyond anything I could have ever imagined. They were difficult, and tiring and long - but also wonderful and amazing.

And now here we are, about to do it all again...

One thing I am doing this time around that I didn't do much of the first two times, is prepare. Yes I went to prenatal classes, had acupuncture, ate well and read birth information booklet after information booklet - but I've learnt now, that isn't enough. I think I prepared my body fairly well (as best as I knew how at the time) but what I know I didn't prepare well was my mind.
I can be completely honest with myself and admit that my mind was not ready for birthing a baby. It was quite weak and vulnerable and simply put, naive.

Through the practise of relaxation and meditation as well as reading and reciting positive birth affirmations, I have found myself drawing closer and closer to being mentally prepared for what lay ahead. I am eradicating the 'fear factor'. It isn't enough for my body to be strong, if my mind is weak I will lose control and not have the birth experience that I desire. I have been reading some very inspiring birth stories (mostly over at Birth Without Fear) along with the book Hypnobirthing: The Mongan Method.

I haven't made a Birth Plan as such, because I know too well that plans don't always eventuate. Instead, I have made a list of My Birth Preferences.
I've kept it very simple, with lines such as -
 - I would like minimal talking and fuss with a hands-off approach
 - Please refer to contractions as 'surges' or 'waves' (far more in keeping with my meditation practise)
 - I would like delayed cord clamping (for it to stop pulsing before it is cut)

I can now say, with confidence, that I am well prepared for the labour and birthing of this baby - and part of being prepared and confident is surrendering to whatever lay ahead of me and going through it without any fear.

Sunday, August 17, 2014


'A portrait of my children, once a week, every week in 2014.'

Ronan & Finnian: I'd been wondering when brothers began to wrestle one another. Up until recently you both very much kept in your own space, only really touching to hit in anger or for a (very fleeting) hug. 
Lately though, you've both been enjoying a friendly wrestle on the trampoline. 

Thursday, August 14, 2014

and now we wait

To be honest, I'm not sure I am quite ready for baby to be born. I am in no way 'fed up' and wishing this time to pass more quickly. I am relishing in these last days, last moments of feeling a tiny person moving around inside of me. It is something so very precious and special.

The past few days I have been lying low, staying indoors, mostly resting on the couch. I have a head cold and a chesty cough that makes my entire body ache. I know now is not the time to be birthing a baby - I think my body and the baby know this too.

I have a couple of dates in my head, when I'd like this baby to be born. One would be a week from now, on my Nan's birthday. Of course, realistically the odds are against us, but only time will tell. In these days ahead I need to let go and surrender to whatever will be. I know the baby will come when it is ready and that time when he or she arrives will be just right.

I could have two weeks to go, I could have four weeks to go. I remind myself to take it slowly, to allow my mind and body to rest, and to cherish these final days of pregnancy and time with my family.

Little baby boy or girl, stay warm in there and let's rest together for a little while longer.