Don't misunderstand me, I love them all equally, in equal amounts, but the same? No. How could I possibly love three, completely unique, individual personalities, hearts and souls the same. I can't.
I love Ronan for his deep thoughtfulness, his kind, enormous heart and his sweet ways. I love his mind and his brain, the way he thinks, ponders and goes about his day. I love the way he is a big brother to Finn and Nell. I love the way he holds my hand and tells me that I'm beautiful. I love his beautiful smile. I love how smart he is, how well he does puzzles. I love his memory - it is incredible. I love the funny faces that he pulls and the way he sings. I love that he loves music, of all types.
I love Finnian for his bigger than life personality; for his determination. I love his cuddles and his big blue eyes. I love the way he admires his big brother, Ronan, and how he adores his little sister Nellie. I love the way Finn loves, with a big heart and open arms. I love the way he wears his heart on his sleeve. I love how agile he is and how amazing his motor skills are. I love that he still needs us and wants us close by. I love that he loves the outdoors.
I love Nellie for all of her sweetness and vulnerability. I love the way she smells and the way she stares into my eyes and smiles. I love her squeaks and squeals, her grunts and cries. I love the way she holds my hand as she feeds. I love that she loves to be held and sleeps soundly in our arms. I love her long eyelashes and chubby, super soft cheeks. I love that her ears are just like mine (like little dried apricots).
My children are all different and so I love them all differently, for different reasons.
Do I have a favourite? That's not possible. My three are equally as wonderful and equally as loveable.